As some of you may remember, I proudly proclaimed 2012 as my YEAR OF CHANGE. Little did I know my proclamation would resonate thru my life and into the lives of those around me. There may be a couple of you reading this and cursing me under your breath....ummm, sorry?!?!
Actually, I am not sorry at all. The changes have been coming fast and furious for me, just not the changes I was anticipating. True for some of you too? Never the less, change is good baby! Mentally and emotionally, I feel that buzz you get after spending the day at a motivational seminar...you know, that feeling of being able to conquer the world...that's where my head and heart are right now. I feel goooood....really good. Unfortunately, not everyone in my inner circle feels as good about their YEAR OF CHANGE as I do. Their emotions seem to range from apprehension to quiet resolve and all the way to full-blown hostility. In all honesty, I've been there...done that...don't wanna go back.
I've been somewhat of a third party observer to my own life, wondering why I feel the way I do instead of one of the more painful emotions available to us all. I mean, let's look at my last twelve months or so....House sold? nope. Moved to the mountains? nope. Foundation up and running smoothly? nope. Book published? another no. And then let's look at the things I didn't plan for....having a son struggling with a learning disability- sadly yes...needing expensive therapy- another yes....needing glasses- yep...other son with painful foot problems that will ultimately end up in multiple surgeries-again yes....and that's just the big things I can think of off the top of my head. I'm sure there's lots of little things to go with them.
So after reviewing that list, both my personal and professional life look like they are in shambles...so why don't I feel like it? Why do I wake up happy and feel completely content? I'm sure part of it because I'm basically a positive person but come on...that list feels like a pretty big hill to climb. Of course I recognize that the world is FILLED with people who have it so much worse than I do but I don't believe that's keeping my chin up, at least not completely. So what is it? Why am I not drowning in depression or sadness? Why don't I have a poor-pitiful-me attitude to accompany my list of woes? Because I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason...that this is part of my journey. And even though I can't possibly see why having a son who struggles to learn the alphabet is a good thing or how missing bones in the feet of my oldest son could eventually be thought of as a God-send, or why in the HELL my beautiful house isn't selling, I know there's light at the end of the tunnel. Everything happens for a reason and in it's own time.
And because I believe this so strongly, I don't see my glass as half-empty. I don't even see it as half-full. I just see a glass...my glass...my life. Sometimes it's overflowing and other times it gets dangerously close to empty but empty or full, it's still a glass. Sparkling, beautiful, light-reflecting crystal glass. It's beautiful in it's own right whether or not there's water in it. The glass is beautiful. The glass is my life. My life is beautiful.
Stop for just a moment and give thanks for the beautiful glass that is your life. Don't measure the water and wonder why it isn't fuller. Just turn the glass and let it reflect in the sunlight and appreciate it for all that it is. Breath deep and let go.... Happiness is a choice you make ahead of time. So just for today, decide to be happy. Let tomorrow take care of it's self.
Namaste' my friends!
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